Finally, i get the chance to be honest to myself.. Please allow me to do so as this is my day. Sorry for my stubborn.

Yes, my heart is still there. The 3 months weren't enough satisfy for the almost 3 years awaiting.

It's gonna be the third year soon if i still can't put down you RIGHT NOW.

Do you sill remember that you owed me a birthday present of last year? And what we've promised to do in your birthday, and my birthday, what you've promised to give me.... and so on. There'e too much promises btw us that you've made, but u just left me before u done it all :'( 

I saw a quote.

承诺，本来就是要被戳破的。

Omg. I was so heart broken when i saw this. Is it true?

Count in your heart, be honest. How many promises you've made? Your sweet talking really warm to melt my heart. You gave me a feeling like I can really to be with you until the end as you've done so much for me. Like my exam, and the communication btw me and your parents, and so on.

Can i use my birthday to be the excuse? I know it's impossible but i really hope to get the answer from you...

Why a people can get to change everything within few days? Weren't we still as good as usual before few days you want to break up? 

That time when we were on the phone, you're still like a little child who making temper towards an adult... You said I must make a day out with you for your birthday NO MATTER WHAT. And I said I don't want because I really bored towards shopping as that time I keep hang out with friends after PMR.

I was totally bankrupt. haha.. but you said just don't worry about that because you have. You were like whatsoever as long as i'm with you er ren shi jie in the cinema that's enough. =) 

Do you know how much sweetness I felt while u talking to me these? Even if forcing by ppl i also feeling so sweet. Is this call love? :D

And day one day before your birthday......... you choose to left. :'( 

without my any mental preparation.. 

Do you know how satire it was? :'(
Andd,  :'( where is the couple ring that you bought me from Iran? I haven't get it then you left me. :'(

There's a song to sing too:

在你的生日，你送我一个礼物叫做伤害。我不敢打开，也不明白.....

The only thing i still don't understand is also what i'm still doubting until now, what is the truth that made you choose to leave me?!

WHY?

You gave me two reasons. 

But he said there is the third reason that's because you have no feeling towards me anymore... Is this real? I just don't know why you can changed so fast.

But, she said actually you still have feeling but you just dislike my over love towards you had made you stress. Is it?

I duno. I really duno what i should do. I never cry after we broke up. but on the day of your birthday party, i tears because of mad not sad. Iskipthis.

I notice that you get more closer to more girls after broke up. If this is one of the reasons made u left, ain;t I never stop you to contact with them? but you choose to less contact with them de lor. So, this reason is unaccepted. =)

If as he said, so yeah i really should give up dy.

But if as SHE said, that means we still got chance right? =D

there is also a quote.

有些话，就算讲出来后会后悔，也好过把它藏起来从未讲出要好。

This is the reason why i dare to write this at here. I really hope you can give me a chance...

like Jeng and Yao, they gave themselves one more chance as they do really love each other.

Although now they also broke up at last, but at least they gave a chance to their relationship and try again to solve the problems btw them.

The problem solved, conclusion is they don't suitable.

At least they did try again.

Think back our sweet memories kay? How melting it was while you were talking me the sweetness thingy. 

I know you're not like those flirting guys who only know to say sweet things to girls bt never with true heart. 

I can felt you were serious.

One more thing, pleaseeeeeee, please think back what you've talked to Jeng when msss at KS in phone. 
Omg! You really did read it. She said you even read it out to her. Do you know? I tears after I knew your feeling towards the memories book. I'm just sooooooooo touched and glad that my efforts are not wasted. :')

Give me a chance, okay? :'( 

I promise I'll change my attitude, won't give you too much pressure of love, I'll follow you whatever you want me to do, I'll change whatever you dislike, and so onnnnnnn. :'( and I just hope to be the type of girl you want... :'(

As long as you give me a chance...even if it is impossible. :'( :'( :'(

Haihhhhhh.... Yes i know i'm saying dream words.
你们就看在今天是我生日的份上， 请允许我发一天的白日梦吧... :'(

Dreaming ends. :'( 

Let me sing a song to myself. The song long 04.17 minutes. How suitable me it was.

我知道伤心不能改变什么 　　

那么让我诚实一点 　　

诚实难免有不能控制的宣泄 　　

只要关上了门不必理谁 　　

一个人坐在空荡包厢里面 　　

手机让它休息一夜 　　

难,想切歌切掉回忆的画面 　　

眼泪不能流过十二点 　　

生日快乐  我对自己说 　　

蜡烛点了  寂寞亮了 　　

生日快乐   泪也融了

我要谢谢你给的你拿走的一切 　　

还爱你   带一点恨 　　

还要时间   才能平衡 　　

热恋伤痕   幻灭重生 　　

祝我生日，快乐

0805,  you are always be kept in my heart of deepest place and never be touched by anyone. Start from now, I'll not pressure you anymore. Forget mylove :')

HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY TO ME .